Someone will read this, then sasabihin nila... "seryoso ang lola!". Well, we have to sometimes. My daugther is ill, not that serious pero I'm a mother and even the slightest pain that my family encounters, nahihirapan ako. Ganun pala ang feeling when your getting into a stage na kailangan ka ng magbago. There are things that must left behind. Well, I never enjoyed my junior life well some of it pero majority yung laging bad trip, kaya ngayon ko palang nakikita ang lahat ng hindi ko napagdaanan.
I also feel pain, not emotionally but physically. All of my friends said na "Ano ba,galing ka bang Q.I.? Bakit ang payat mo?"... how the should I know?!... 'wag kayong magtaka kung pumapayat ako... you will be surprised kapag tumaba ako!
There's so many things that I cannot do na, like climbing stairs, I always catched my breath kapag umaakyat ako ng overpass. I can't stand alone for a few minutes, my legs were getting numb already. I do smoke... a lot. I know na ang sasabihin mo... TIGILAN MO NA YAN!! I'm trying, it's like guarding a apple pie to a fat kid. I do feel the depression, so many failures and I'm strugling alone.
