Are you Gay?

I was at my friends house last night (Day Off kasi he he). Usually, inuman to the max, kaso I'm not into drinking ngayon (oh please!). There, my humble friend serves us their "maling" from his mothers kitchen (hahaha..nandugas pa) and with the help of his cousins tropa to buy a an alak(e di nakalibre). Most of our kainuman is gay... yes! my dear, gay as you can imagine, in short... Bakla. The first few bottles of beer e sila ang sumagot. I was there lang sa sulok, looking at them while laughing to death. One of them was named Yuan or Yu-Ann... a 22 year old lad who claims that he was also gay but he's against to those na gumagawa ng kabaklaan na nakakahiya daw... the traditional way daw of being bakla is having a guy-by-side just to prove na kasama kana sa "federazzion" nila or even wears a lady dress (oh yeah) with matching heels na nuknukan ng taas or shorts na nuknukan ng ikli at rarampa in the middle of the night, hunting for boys to be victimized. I was looking at his face and yet nakakahinayang, he's a good looking guy yun nga lang bakla. I can see that he was happy sa ginagawa niya. When the topic was changed into love life, he was assured that he was so malas about that, and his face turned pale, I dunno kung nasusuka sya sa kalasingan or talagang nalulungkot sya. The other gay person that I encountered was much matured than Yuan, 36 year-old named Mayumi. He's different, lots of fun side, maybe because of his former job as a stand up commedian few months just before he went to Japan. He dressed like a girl, sleeveless shirt and a pedal pants, some make up but not that heavy, making her a stand out because of his humor. He acts like Joey de Leon when he opens his mouth at kung kumilos akala mong gurl talaga. His real name was Hector or something and some friends calls him "Baldo!"... I almost drop sa kakatawa when my friend ask him to reveal his name. Wala syang seryosong nasabi that night, puro pagpapatawa unlike Yuan na medyo senti. The third gay person is Patty, hindi ko masyado natanong ang characteristic nya, dahil bukod sa 2 bakla ay medyo tahimik sya. But the way he wears clothes ay medyo nakaka-shock!... He got a bustline I think of a size 36, medyo nahiya ako dahil yung sa kin e akala mo mungo compare to him. He wears a lots of make up, hindi nman sa napuna ko yung face nya na akala mong espasol sa puti... plunging neckline, hanging blouse and a see-through blazer in black and a mini skirt, and take note... naka T-Back. It was funny that they can wear those kind of clothes in just a simple inuman lang nman. I was thingking that kung natatangap ba nila ang mga tukso ng ibang tao, I mean, nde mawawala sa mga tambay dyan sa labas na nababastos sila. "Go lang!" they shouted!... They get used to it naman daw when the time comes, at kapag bakla ka na talaga ay hindi mo na daw papansinin yung ganun. One of my friends has a 1 brother only, actually 2 lang silang lalaki, sya nag asawa ng maaga, yung isa naging bakla (kaya pala tumakbo ng Dubai tatay mo e), he's against sa bakla (pero tawa sya ng tawa nung gabing yun), I said, we are all the same yun nga lang meron kakaibang nangyayari na sometimes hindi natin matangap, wala naman intensyon ang isang bakla na maging bakla at magkalat ng karumihan sa mundo. Minsan nga kung sino pa ang straight e yun pa loko-loko. When I was still in College, sa Fine Arts building e 5 lang ang bakla mula 1st up to 4th year, 4 of them e mukang lalaki pa rin, baluktot lang magsalita, 1 of them e talagang bakla na. When I stopped from school, bumalik ako after 3 years na, ayun... halos lahat bakla na, halos buong section meron na. I was shocked!! pati tomboy nag increase ng volume. But the gay guy e isa sa mga deans listers. I began to have 5 friends whose puro gay sila. I remember Mickey, real name Mark, magaling tong batang toh lalo na sa fashion subject, they said that he was look exactly like Bong Revilla (kaya imaginin mo si Bong na mahaba buhok) at totoo yun. But his parents doesn't know about his true revelations, kapag nsa bahay sya lalaking-lalaki sya, try mo tawagan sa phone ang isasagot sayo "O PARE KAMUSTA!" ha ha ha. Other one is Teddy, eto tlagang reveal na, kasi kahit uniform niya e uniform na ng babae e. Malakas din magpatawa... sasakit tyan mo. Si Jayvee naman medyo malambot, mulato siya pero ang taray ng kilay. He claims to have a boyfriend pero niloloko lang daw siya. Siya make-up artist ko when a school fashion show was held way back 2000. Yung iba hindi intention na malimutan ang name, lintek ang dami kasi e. When nag work ako, I remember Adan (ganda ng pangalan e noh), he was also gay. Sa kanya ko narinig ang mga kwento about bakla na talagang nanlalaki, 'bout their sex life, financial and love probelems, pero nde sya mukang bakla... wag lang magsasalita. I find it hard to believe that was really happening. Speaking of that experience, I was pinagkamalan na tomboy din dati. I was still 17 then, sa catwalk papuntang building ng FA e inaabangan na ako ng taga-BA, synchronize pa ang pagbati nila..."Hi! Niq"... I thought it was a plain gesture dahil baguhan lang ako. I cut my hair short, wearing a kupas na pants... matching wasak pa by the tuhod (hindi pa bawal sa UE nun yon), a chuck taylor shoes and a white Tee (wow! ang pogi!!)...jeprox! samahan mo pa ng Rayban. Maybe I look like a guy before (hangang ngayon naman e), Tom Cruise nga raw e (anak ng!! sana si Nicole Kidman nalang). Then everyday may naka abang, meron hindi nakatiis at nagbigay ng letter... sowsss akala ko it was the first ever letter of admirer na makukuha ko... hindi nman ako nagkamali...kaso galing sa babae. I freaked out... "Seriously pare!!... Do I look like a boy?" e malandi pa ako sa bakla kpag nakilala nyo ako...naman...naman...naman....Well, mabuti nman at hindi ako na enganyo.

I have a cousin who is bakla too, eldest cousin namin, so he was above 50 na. Etong katabi ko dito, may bahid na rin. Yung kumpare ko na in 10 years kaming magkaibigan e hindi ko matanong sa kanya kung ano talaga siya...powtah kilos bakla e... ang laking tao pa, baka isabit ako sa poste kapag tinanong ko e. My friends brother is bakla. My other kumpare...ayun bakla. Kaya wala na tayong magagawa. I accept the fact na tao rin sila, they do need respect... if they respect themselves.

Krung! Krung!

Someone told me a story the other day, about a boy-meets-girl, make sagot the guy then after few years... girl-leaves-boy! (famillar to ah). Love is a sacrifice daw...duh! at sinong ponio pilatong gagawa ng ganyan ngaun?! Well, everybody(sinagot ang tanong). There's this and that!... Been there, done that!... "na-mi-miss ko na sya hu hu hu", e anak ng...iniwan ka na nga e, syempre may reason...dami; siguro nasasakal na sya, may nakitang meron higit sayo, ayaw ng magulang sayo, ang booring mong kasama dahil wala ka ng binukang bibig kung nde "bago cellfone q!... wanna try?", "may laro kami mamya dala ka twalya", o baka kala nya dati ang guwapo mo sa unang tingin sa bandang huli panget din, mabaho hininga mo... at ang huli "AYAW KO NA SAYO!!". In different cases, many reason. No one can predict when will the pain remain or "sumama na sa bagyo!", like me, I thought he was the one (scenario: 7yrs ago) he's my whole world, my life, my companion, my love (sowsss!) but a year, nawala nalang, lumipad na ata kasama ng utak nya papuntang Dubai (ay ewan), kaw ba naman sabihan ka "Wala na ako nararamdaman...kc ang bigat mong kasama"...nyee as if nag-fit yung reason e noh, sana nga sinabi nalang na meron ng iba e matatangap mo pa kasi kapag ganun alam mong may kulang ka, at may nakakahigit sayo. Kung lalaki lang ako malamang nagsuntukan na kami nun e ha ha ha. Maybe it was never meant to be talaga, wag na ipilit ang ayaw kasi the more you put it that way, it gets worse (nakana...nagsalita).

Another case (nde akin); girl-meets-boy, boy-love-girl, then boy-pinagpalit sa ibang-girl, pathetic, naive. Hmmmm, in this kinda thing medyo common na, the girl thought that she's super secure with his guy, they said that it is their nature to... you know, magkaroon ng sabit yung guy, huh! and they thought na napaka-macho na nila sa ganun state. Sample, I have a friend, lahat ata ng lugar sa CAMANAVA e tinantusan na (Oo Jepp kaw yun!), minsan nakakainis na kasama kasi paranoid lagi "Uy! alis na tayo dito baka may kakilala si Tanga, makita pa ako!" Or "Pre may regalo ako, nandyan sa kotse... busog ka dyan he he he" langya akala ko lechon, babae pala. The fact na ganito ang nature ng mga lalaki e meron naman good side, yun nga lang minsan kapag dumating na sa punto na wala sayo ang hinahanap nila e maghahanap pa rin (nyeee ganun din)labo. Well, meron pa naman natitira, and maybe sya nalang siguro ang taong ganun sa mundo (sowss mare swerte mo sa bf mo), mabait, masipag, mapagmahal, God-fearing at kung anu-ano pa (meron ka ba non), I'm talking about BZZZZZZZZZZ (aray! aray! kuryente!!), he's one of my friends, actually kababata ko. Minsan nga naiisip ko baka tanga na lang tong taong to eh, kasi kahit ano ang gawin sa kanya ng gurl ay naku... pusta ako babatukan mo. But I salute this guy (hehehe yan pinuri kana). Sa situation like this, I may say, kapag ganito ginawa sa'yo, face the reality (parang ang dali e noh), mas masaklap nga yung mismo sa harapan mo mas pinili yung iba (nakupo, don't ask coz nakakabwiset!), Head on, isipin na lang na mas maganda na yung ganun, kung may nakakahigit sa'yo na sometimes na "questionable" na mukang paliparan ng eroplano ang katawan e ala kang magagawa, its he's dezizion! mark your mind "Hindi ako ang nawalan"(Yeheyy!! sabay-sabay!) Then move on, but wag muna maghanap ng ipapalit, I'm not saying na pangit tingnan but kawawa ang mabibiktima, sbihin mong hindi mo intentions ang mang gamit pero ganun na rin ang kalalabasan. Oki!

Another case; Boy-meets-girl, girl-love-boy, but boy found-out-a-secret, then boy-leaves-girl... or vice versa; This will be bullsh!#!, if you really love your special someone, you don't have to dig-in for some of their past, well depende nalang kung mad killer yan dati, a secret sometimes has to remain a secret, 'wag mong ipilit kung ayaw, they will reveal it to you if the time comes, and if they really trust and love you enough pwedeng mapaaga ang pag-confess nya "shhhh...alam ko kung sino nag assasinate kay Ninoy" (yung mga ganong tipo ba). And in your part, nandun na yun kung ma-appreciate mo ang kanyang sinabi. Well in some cases (ehemplo, ehemplo) There's this girl, she trully loves his guy, she said, "I have a little bit of a secret, and I love you kaya ayokong may itinatago sa'yo"...(so here goes)... Isa siyang lokaret... kung tawagin ng jologs ay "Muret!", if you can imagine what kind of a girl this is... BINGO!, makulit, magulo, maingay, isang damakmak ang naging syota sa school, hindi na virgin (issue ba yun?)etc etc... but that was before when she met you at wala kapa sa buhay niya. But things change, nag iba na lahat... iba na lahat sa kanya. Nung nalaman mo na ganito siya noon, pero iba na ngayon, well thank God at tinangap mo... pero hindi bukal sa loob mo. They ended in marriage, but then suddenly nag-flash back sayo ang lahat... "Ba't ito ang pinakasalan ko?"... e bakit nga ba?...kasi mahal mo, kaya chuva ang lahat ng negatives niya. You have to understand, nobody's perfect, kahit ikaw siguro may bahong tinatago. Don't complain!! think about the future, hindi yung kahapon. I read a magazine about a couple who's been going steady for four years, they decided to tie a knot for the next six months, then suddenly the guy change his mind, he realized that his girlfriend e hindi na... you know... hindi siya ang naging una sa experience ng (hayyy) and he said "You're not the ideal wife that I'm dreaming of, a mother of my kids!".... WHAT!... Kapag ganito ka, then you are an ass#@ll!!. Think about it.

SCREW THE MAN!!

I'm at the office ryt now, before that I went to barangay hall to follow up a blotter case (ha ha ha langya). It was a simple scenario of "friend reklamo" but estafa will be a serious situation. So let them be, sa monday naman magkakabayaran na... "God is watching us"

I go to bed this morning at 4am and automatically woke up at 6:30am (please, give me sleeping pills hu hu hu). My friend told me that "parang kang aswang!, sa gabi ka gising!".... ok ok, di bale sana kung nakakatulog ako ng umaga, e after that I have to go to work (darn!). I'm a graphic artist (aning! aning!) and also a freelancer, my daily routine are not the same as others, lalo na kapag hataw sa gawa (project). I am a mother, a wife, a workaholic (away tayo kapag pinatambay mo ako!)...That's me!
I started this kind of a situation 7 years ago, "nasanay na ako sa puyatan" in short "ako ang taong walang gabi"...laging gising, sometimes more than 48hrs (ilaban mo ako sa lamay sa patay, hindi ka uubra). I tell you why, nagsimula ako masanay when the era of "WWF"...oh yes! I'm a big Ultimate Warrior fan!! (beware Hulkters!)...BOOM ganun na. When I was in College ganun din, making plates was fun to do but the labor of making it was hard, lalo na yang Scenography! (making a miniature stage)on our time wala pang graphics at pc subjects (jurassic na kami he he he) so its mano-mano by hands, can you imagine there's dis subject in advertising that you must create a logo... or any font in a size of 12pts sa pc e kinakamay namin, lucky for the students dis days na hindi sila umabot sa ganun. Or making 4 plates in different major subjects on the same deadline (wheewww!). Pero after that... masaya na! (I miss you guys!). When I started working at the age of 18 (turning 18 in 21 days to be exact) so it was 19 kopong-kopong pa yun. Naransan ko yung walang pera sa bulsa cause yung salary ko e para lang sa tuition fee at pambili ng gamit para sa school, yung para sa transpo e "bahala na Diyos ng chekwa bukas!", My lunch will be a marlboro (minsan 50/50, hati pa kaming tatlo sa isang yosi) at tubig sa drinking fountain na muntik pa ako mabiktima ng amoeba!!... I said to myself, "I'll never go hungry again" (huh! Gone with the Wind!), I suffered from that situation for almost 2 years, then... eto na, napunta na ako sa graphics year 1999, nagsimula na panibagong kalbaryo ko. I was working sa umaga then school sa hapon (or vice versa) then bakla sa gabi...este banda pala. Hindi normal naging buhay ko ha ha ha (natawa pa), samantalang yung mga friends ko e ang tanging prob nila e exams at plates while I was thingking of "where the heck ako kukuha ng pambayad sa kuryente bukas?". Dekada na ako sa ganyan (job), I roam around the metro to work for the last 10 years. Then dumating ang moment na may extra income. Then I got married and raising a daughter. Parang hindi nga ako nanay dahil sa trabaho ko... e daig ko pa Hosto at Hostes kung magpuyat, talo ko pa tanod sa barangay kung magronda sa gabi. I wake up at 6am (swerte na yung 7am), do the daily morning rituals, minsan may dagdag pa kapag nagising yung anak ko ng maaga, pasok sa work... trabaho, trabaho, trabaho... then uwi, minsan may OT until 10pm, then uwi, minsan magluluto, then kain, pahinga ng konti, kukultin ko chikiting ko or minsan hindi na dahil pagod na, then gagawa ng sideline at 12 midnight until 3 or 4 minsan kapag gulpihan sa deadline e hangang 5:30, pahinga ng konti ulit... ligo, pasok!! (hala). I do that sometyms more than 20xs a month, kaya don't ask if I look like I'm having dis Anorexia look. They even doubted me as a drug addict because "ang lakas mong mag-trip men... tamang gawa ka sa madaling araw" thing... I realized na hindi ko ka kaya at baka I will end up like my brother who died 6 years ago at the age of 35 because of the same gawain (naku! may 6yrs pa ako para mabuhay). Nakakaramdam na ako ng hindi maganda, I even hallucinate kapag napupuyat ako "Huh! nakita mo ba yun? may ibang tao ba dito?"... nyeee, may "bulong" na ata ako. I rested for 3 months (dis year), no more freelance jobs anymore, then I quit sa banda para iwas puyat at mga gastos (dahil para akong nanakawan kapag tumutugtog kami), lumipat ako ng job sa QC (parang ganun din) sa layo at transpo... TALO!!! Then quit nanaman sa job, pahinga ng 2 weeks, at bwiset na yan sinabayan pa ng bagyo at hi-tide at pinasok ng tubig ang bahay namin sa Atlantic place ng Malabon. Balewala!!! at eto nagsisimula nanaman ang freelance ko (parang hindi ako mapakali kpag wala non)... hayyy!! till when kaya ako makakapag vacation... dream ko yun.

Day One

Abnoi's Blog dated (stated above)

Wheeeww!! Finally the typhoon e lumayas na. I live at Malabon City, well actually borderline na ng Malabon and Navotas kaya magulo ha ha ha. When you said na "Batang Kalookan"...astig, while "Batang QC"...wow gimik!! e kpag sinabi mo na... "sa Malabon po ako nakatira", pusta ko ang itatanong sayo, "e di marunong kang lumangoy?"
WHAAAAAA!!

Actually I grew up in Valenzuela...lihitomo kaya I dunno anything about baha(flood), my first day in Malabon was when my classmate invited to their home to pick up some of the canvass(for paitings)that we need for the Outdoor painting. I noticed that every house that I passed by hav a second floor and the first floor door knob e kapantay na ng tuhod ko..."Uso ba yan d2?"... I may look stupid on that question ha ha ha.

After years, tambay na ako ng Malabon, ayun!!! kneelevel flood e hindi pa sila natataranta while at Valenzuela(Karuhatan BTW) umabot lang ng bukong-bukong nagtatampisaw na. Tragic part na nakatira na aq sa Atlantic, our house that I rent was flooded yesterday, and I have a week vacation just because of that!!(grrr)and if your asking for a taxi, ay naku kpag cnabi mo the magic word..."Ay hindi ako biyahe dyan"

Yesterday, I got out from work at 6:30pm and I came home 2 hrs after that. Don't ask why...because naglakad ako...it was a bad day for me, I was walking at Letre and Im heading at C4, while walking in the middle of park-like island, a man (on front of me) e laging lumilingon, he's holding a celfone with an umbrella matching bota. I dont understand why he acted that way...I realized what I was wearing that night. A jacket with a hood and a cap drenched in rain with matching yosi (malamig e)...sus! napagkamalan pa ata ako holdaper. Kaya pala paranoid sya na he thought I was following him...naman!! Then I walked through a below knee water in the middle of the highway (inis!)I have bruises on my feet because of my slipper(aray!)and some freaking sand was fu@#*!! itchy. I hold my self to take a rest and look for a lugaw, there's nowhere to be found,even for a penoy... then I saw a jeepney "hurray!!!" it was loaded na and isa na lang ang kulang...and that's me. I was wet dahil naglakad ako, and I squeezed myself in the middle of an old lady and a typical middle age like me. Suddenly a lady beside me said "miss ano ba, ung pants mo basa, nababasa ako!"...WHAAAT!!!! Buti nalang malawak pa utak ko, kung hindi sisikuhin ko talaga e. Where can you find na tuyong tao on that time..."Bat nde ka mag Taxi!!". She wears a heavy make up(oh yeah umuulan), with a white blouse, blue skirt with a blazer... like a saleslady...aapakan ko na sana yung paa e, natawa na lang ako when I realized na baka susuotin pa nya yung uniform nya the next day. Stupidity!! I was basa, gutom, pagod, masakit ang paa...then may magrereklamo pa...sus!

Time for a CHANGE!!

Before, my plan for this part of my blog e sa mga serious lang(huh?) But then again na realize ko...Boooooorrrriiing!!

I will make some changes para wholesome ha ha ha, at para maiba naman, my other blog seems so "bloody"<----(scottish accent) seryoso.